The seeming randomness of depression, anxiety, and psychotic breaks can make you feel like mental illness is something you can’t control or heal. This confusion creates a feeling of being a victim of mental illness. Layer on top of that what the psychiatric community says about mental illness; that most are incurable, and only treatable with medications, and you have a recipe for misery.
I experienced all of these symptoms for over 20 years. I was diagnosed with Bipolar Disorder 1, Chronic Depression, ADD, Obsessive Compulsive Disorder, and Borderline Personality Disorder. I experienced extreme depression that left me suicidal, bedridden, and psychotic. I was convinced by my many doctors and therapists that what I had was genetic, incurable, life-long, and only treatable with medications.
Most of the medications made me feel worse. The ones that worked, only worked for a short period of time. This left me desperate, but it also showed me that the people who were supposed to be “helping” me, were clueless, as well. I know this sounds harsh, and I don’t want to hurt feelings, but this whole thing didn’t make sense. I truly believe that all doctors, nurses, and therapists have a wonderful, heartfelt intention to help people, but the protocols they are given to use are not supportive.
I spent a lot of time researching what could help depression and anxiety … I couldn’t work so I had a lot of time on my hands. I read a lot books and websites, and listened to a lot of podcasts … I got nowhere.
It wasn’t until 2015, and after 20 years of trying to get better through the medical and psychiatric institutions, that I was ready for something different. I started opening up to spiritual ideas. The idea that maybe I was more than just my body, and maybe I was a part of something bigger. I started reading all kinds of books on spirituality and religions. I knew God had been around longer than religion; so why were there so many different religions? I looked for the common thread in religions and found it to be; Love! I resonated with love and the power of love.
So, I looked for information about God being loving, and the love we have inside. This led me to the work of Ascension. Ascension is a process of uprooting fears and healing emotional wounds to make more room for our Souls, love, and peace. On the path of ascension, one learns all about the light of God, but also, all about the darkness that fights against it. This is when I was led to information that rang true like the loudest bell in the world ….
Invisible Dark Entities cause depression, anxiety, psychotic breaks, schizophrenia, and suicide.
I know this sounds crazy, and I don’t mind, because this knowledge is what finally set me free and brought me actual Peace of Mind! And I have been happily off all medication since 2016.
This ‘Spiritual Awakening’ began by understanding the magnificent light of my Soul and God. But to understand the light, you must also understand the dark. Within these polarities is the understanding of different kinds of energy. Everything is made of energy. Quantum physics is an entire branch of science that studies how energy creates matter.
Energy is invisible, but we can all agree it exists. So, it isn’t so crazy to think that invisible negative entities might also exist.
When we feel good, our energy is vibrating and moving in a healthy speed. When we feel bad, our energy is vibrating in an unhealthy speed. Depression vibrates very low. Anxiety vibrates too high. Peace and joy vibrate somewhere in the middle, just right. Negative thoughts vibrate very low, and have a negative charge, causing a negative feeling. Positive thoughts vibrate in a healthy spectrum, and have a positive charge, causing good feelings.
So, where do negative thoughts come from??
Negative thoughts come from several places; emotional wounds, fears, and invisible negative entities. Negative entities are NOTHING TO FEAR. Their power lies in the fact that they are invisible and thought to Not exist. When we understand, they Do exist, and when we understand what they can do …. we take our power back!
Let’s first talk about what they want and what they can do, and then we’ll go into why they aren’t talked about by the Psychiatric and Medical Institutions.
Negative entities want loosh. Loosh is the negative energy produced by people when they feel bad; i.e. depressed, sad, angry, anxious, numb. They are able to extract loosh from people in about 3 ways. Either by attaching to someone who already feels upset, or by implanting negative thoughts into someone until they feel upset, or while a person is under the influence of drugs or alcohol.
When an entity implants a negative thought into your mind it will sound and feel like your own thought. Think about it… have you ever had a thought that seemed crazy, weird or really random? Did you feel it came out of nowhere? Were you embarrassed by the thought? Have you ever thought, “I must be crazy if I could think something like that?”
These are good questions to keep asking yourself, because it’s important to learn how to DISCERN where your thoughts come from. And to answer your question …… YOU ARE NOT CRAZY! You are not ill, sick, or broken. These entities can make you feel that way by filling your head with negative or weird thoughts. Many times, I’ve had entities fill my head with thoughts of suicide. They even told me where I could find a gun at my father’s house in a hidden closet, that I previously didn’t know existed. The negative entities create suicide plans, NOT a person’s Soul. Even if you have not personally experienced suicidal thoughts, think about what you have witnessed. Have you ever known someone that took their life, and been so surprised? How about someone famous that seemed ok right before they took their life? When people open themselves up to the idea of suicide, these entities hammer down non-stop. So, to take our power back, let’s talk about how to discern where thoughts come from and what to do about them.
When a thought comes from your unhealed emotional wounds or fears, they are triggered by a life experience. Something happens in your day or in a current relationship, that triggers the wound or fear, and surfaces negative thoughts from your subconscious. At this time, we must learn to be the Masters of our Emotions. Our emotions and thoughts are telling us where we need healing, and it’s important to face these wounds and fears, making time for processing and healing.
Now, negative entities can amplify this process by inserting more negative thoughts. It’s like they piggy back on your triggered pain or fear. So, what might have been an upsetting afternoon, turns into a full blown depression or panic attack.
Negative thoughts can also feel more random, like they came out of nowhere. When the negative thoughts feel random, this plays right into the story of … I’m mentally ill and sick, and I have no control over my illness. This is Not the truth. When a negative thought “randomly” pops into your head, this is coming directly from a negative entity. Notice where you are when this happens. Sometimes, it happens when we are alone, but most of the time it happens when we are in groups. Negative entities can hitchhike from person to person. They can also lay in waiting in places where tragic things happened; i.e. where battles were fought or murders took place. This is why some places feel haunted … because they are. This is a big reason why people have anxiety attacks on planes or at concerts. Entities can attach to your light body and project disturbing images in your mind of things you’ve seen on the news or in movies, causing fear and anxiety.
Then, there are the people in your life that we can call Energetic Vampires. These people will try to hold your attention in conversation until you feel drained and frustrated. The extreme versions of these people are abusive. The entities can feed their mind with words and phrases used to hurt you. Sometimes they are able to say the exact thing that hurts you the most. When you ask them later about it, most likely they deny what they said, either out of spite, or they have been memory wiped by the entity.
Now, the entities can’t trigger a fear or wound unless it was already there. So, we must learn what our fears and wounds are, so we can heal and uproot them. When we heal ourselves and truly believe in our amazingness, the entities have NO POWER!
So, it’s important to be careful with the thoughts you engage with. DO NOT BELIEVE NEGATIVE THOUGHTS! Negative thoughts are Not the truth! It’s important to get to the root of a negative thought so you can clear it, but to NOT believe and engage with it. PERIOD!
Thoughts like … “I’m stupid, I’m fat, nobody loves me … etc” are all Lies! Thoughts like these come from pain or entities, and will never be true, because not ALL the facts can be felt or understood. The truth will come from your LOVE, your SOUL, and GOD. Truth can only be felt when you feel calm and peaceful. This is why negative entities try to trigger your pain and ping your nervous system; so you can’t feel the truth. When your nervous system is pinged, you might feel the following: stinging through your body, elevated heart rate, pressure (like someone sitting on your chest), feeling trapped, foggy brain, and racing negative thoughts. These feelings block your intelligence, love, and rational thinking mind, therefore block the truth, as well. Theses entities don’t want you to know how powerful, wonderful, protected, smart, and loved you truly are, because they can’t live off of positive feelings.
To put it simply: When you are scared, depressed, nervous, confused, upset, etc … You can’t feel God and you can’t feel the truth. This is why the controllers of society want to keep everyone in fear; we are easier to control when we are scared.
Mastering your Mind and Emotions is your birthright and an incredible gift to give yourself. You don’t have to be a monk in the Himalayas to do it. You can do it here and now.
This is how:
We must not go on auto-pilot with our thoughts! We can choose mindfully what thoughts we engage with. We might not be able to block all negative or weird thoughts, but we can choose which thoughts we engage with. We can Choose to Only engage with Positive thoughts! And we can allow emotions to surface in a healthy way, and not push them down or lash them out on others. Find people you trust to help you with this process. Be gentle and patient with yourself. This process can take a while to get used, especially if you’ve spent years doing it another way. (*Can you imagine if every child was taught in elementary school about positive and negative thoughts? What if there were whole subjects called, Emotional Health, Mental Health, and Spiritual Health? How different would our world be?)
When we think thoughts our Soul and God agree with, a good feeling will be produced. When we think and engage with negative thoughts, our Souls and God will never agree, and this will create negative feelings in ourselves. So, it’s important to spend time every morning and through out your day in calmness. Meditation and/or prayer are wonderful ways to connect to Truth, love, and peace. Our highest intelligence only flows when we are calm. So, we must never make decisions from a negative emotion. It’s also in this place of calm, that negative entities can’t affect us. When we are calm and peaceful, our energetic vibration is out of range for negative entities. So, search out all the ways that create calm within yourself. Our greatest healing and happiness comes from calm and our connection to God.
We must remember there is Nothing to fear and we are completely protected by God in all ways.
I never thought that a bunch of invisible entities would turn out to be the reason I stayed depressed, anxious, and psychotic for over 20 years … but here I am. And so, it’s time to share with those of you who are ready to hear the truth.
The two biggest reasons the truth about negative entities has been covered up and suppressed are: Money and Power.
There is no money to be made from people who are able to heal themselves. And because billions of dollars are being made from the pharmaceutical companies (that are so powerful and rich they control the world governments and Medical Schools), the resources being used to keep the truth quiet is vast.
People are easier to control when they are sick and fearful. The truth about a lot of things is kept out of Medical schools, institutions and media, so the Controllers of this world can stay hidden and in power behind the scenes. This has been happening for thousands of years. How can we fight what we can’t see. It’s easy to create the illusion of free will for entire countries when you have unlimited funds and resources. Some countries don’t even try to hide it.
Why do we have history classes that have us all memorize the details of violent wars and unsupportive political agendas? Why is there not even one class about Solutions to the World’s Problems? Not even one?
It’s time for this to change, and for the Light of Truth to be known to All! It’s time for people to heal and be happy. The Truth will set us FREE!
I don’t want you to just believe me, in fact I hope you question everything I say. I want you to feel your own truth, and don’t give up until you feel the peace you deserve!
With all my love and truth,
Amy Ryan
Week 6 Journal
This is a big week so I encourage you to make lots of time for self-care. When you ready, journal about times in your life you have felt invasive thoughts. Do you resonate with the article above? Describe any experiences you have had or feel now that could come from entities.